This Man Drained Me Faster than Mercury Retrograde

11.20 Weekly Drop ✨

Nov 20, 2025

In today’s mix of magic + musings: ⚡️ Things I’ve been thinking about , 🌕 Energy Update, 🪄 Alchemize the Energy Spell, 🫶 Overheard in Session, 💁‍♀️ Personal update from me, 🔮 Oracle Insights, + 💕 Things I’m loving right now

⚡️ Things I’ve been thinking about:

I’ve really gotten into spell work and rituals because there’s a lot of intentionality behind it. And if you know me, then you know I’m extremely intentional about everything I do! Come to my house and you’d see, every plant is perfectly placed. I mean just look at the background of this video.

Intentionality isn’t just limited to my botanical friends. You see it in how I run my business, write this blog, buy gifts, or host a party (and you best believe I make an incredible spread).

I’m a firm believer that how you do one thing is how you do everything. For me, intention is everything. So here’s a video of me making the spell from last week’s blog, which is fully infused with my intentions.

Week of Nov 20th Energy Update:

🌙 There’s a New Moon (today!) on the 20th and it’s a moment of rebirth and transformation. And this rebirth, well she’s going to demand honesty and vulnerability. This lunation is highly charged and exactly opposing Uranus so expect surprising truths or a sudden shakeup. It’s also conjunct to Mercury retrograde and opposing Uranus, making your intentions highly charged.

This is the time to focus your energy towards real, true intimacy, healing past wounds (you’ve been avoiding), and reclaiming your power. Don’t be surprised if you discover some shocking truths along the way.

💛 We also have a Mercury Cazimi (aka Heart of the Sun) on the 20th. Mercury, the Sun, and New Moon will all be at the same degree. It’s considered a moment of immense clarity where the mind (Mercury) is briefly protected from the Sun’s harsh burn and receives a direct, divine downloads of truth and wisdom.

Whatever revelations or ideas you receive on the 20th, take note. Write down every dream, thought, or intuitive hit. Then use this information to help set the stage for your transformation over the next month.

♐️ On the 21st Sun enters Sagittarius WOOOO HOOOOOOOOO - SAGI SEASON IS HERE! (Can you tell I’m excited?) It’s time to welcome in an emotional break, bringing in optimism, adventure, and curiosity. All my favorite things! We are on the quest for meaning, sprinkled in with a side of truth and freedom.

Let optimism be your guide. Spend time journaling, brainstorming, or ideating, the energy will be brimming with ideas and solutions to your problems. Save the fluff for another time, instead engage in philosophical conversations about Socrates or the limitations of human consciousness.

One additional call out. Mercury, still in retrograde, is entering Scorpio, which will have an impact on relationships, specifically around communication. Actually MIScommunication. What a fun little extra to sprinkle into your week.

💫This is your time to clean your emotional suitcase, ‘cause we’re packing light as we move into Sagittarius season baby. While Mercury is still in retrograde (for a few more days), allow the lessons from Scorpio to integrate. I give you full permission to unapologetically protect your energy at all costs and do whatever makes you feel centered. Let the fire of Sag inspire!

🪄 Alchemize the Energy: Truth + Freedom Healing Ritual

Get Honest with Yourself utilizing the Scorpio Excavation Energy
Journal on the following prompt with complete, radical honesty, because no one else will be reading this but you. Be vulnerable and get specific. Don’t think, just write. Emotionally dump it all out on paper.
What fears or emotions are you still carrying that you’re ready to leave behind? What deep seated hidden truths or limiting beliefs live beneath these fears or emotions. (e.g. fear of success is rooted in the belief of unworthiness)
Now Pivot moving from heavy past (Scorpio) into a bright future (Sagittarius)
Journal on how you could pivot or alchemize this energy.
What freedom or opportunity would letting go of this truth or belief give you? How would your life fundamentally change if you’re able to move past this negative fear or emotion?
The Quest to get honest with yourself
Dedicate a full page to what your life would look like if you found a way to release this negative fear or emotion.
How would you feel? How would people treat you? How would you treat yourself? How might you show up differently in the world?
Then write a single, expansive statement to lock in your desires. Think of this statement as your guiding star. The reason, maybe even the proof you need, to release and dissolve the negativity that no longer serves you.
💌 Keep this statement visible all week long. Use it as your mantra whenever you feel old beliefs star to creep back in.

🫶 Overheard in Session

During a session I had last week, 3 generations back on this person’s mother’s side kept coming up. After the session was over, my client shared she was named after her great-grandmother (3 generations) on her mother’s side! And that they have the same profession. I literally can’t make this stuff up 💜

💁‍♀️ Personal Update:

“You’re too picky Christina. You’re never going to find someone perfect.”

I can’t even begin to tell you how many times I’ve heard this sentiment from my mother. Inferring I am intentionally sabotaging romantic relationships in the search for something nonexistent. The hunt for perfection. When in reality, it’s that I don’t want to settle. If you’ve met any of my ex boyfriends, you can agree none were perfect. But then again, I’m also not perfect. Especially because perfection doesn’t actually exist. It’s a fabrication of ideas and standards that we’ve made up in our heads as a benchmark for reality. Key words: made up.

Ahh Perfection! Meanwhile the red guy’s face is melting off.

My problem… issue? No, tendency is to be too forgiving and too understanding in relationships. Allowing for bad behavior, giving too much of myself away, and/or suppressing my own wants or needs for those of my partner. Sacrificing, making excuses, and staying quiet all to keep the peace or bolster up the man I love. And ya know where that got me? Nowhere good! I can tell you that.

It’s actually done the opposite of my intentions. Instead of improving my relationships, it always made them worse, because I would eventually become resentful. Resentful that I was sacrificing and also doing so much. But this wasn’t a THEM problem, it was a ME problem. No one asked to me change my behavior, it’s something I willfully did because I thought that’s what love was. Putting other people (and their wants, needs, desires) first as a way to show or prove my love for them. If I didn’t give them everything HOW would they know I was worthy of their love?

I realize now this line of thinking is ass backwards. When you love, honor, and respect yourself, your partners love, honor, and respect you. One might argue, even more. Without even realizing it, we’re subconsciously communicating to the people in our lives how we want to be treated through our own actions. I can’t fault my exes for not showing up for me the way I wanted. How could they know? Because I definitely didn’t tell them, at least not until it was too late.

I had one boyfriend who was super unmotivated. He talked a big game. Constantly reminding himself of all the things he was good at, while never actually ever taking action. He also never took responsibility. There was always an excuse or reason for why he didn’t have the time, or the money, to pursue his dreams, get a new job, or even do his fucking laundry.

That was the beginning of the end for us. I started to overcompensate. Thinking if I helped him, he would have the capacity to chase his dreams and figure it all out. I did the most: cooking, cleaning, planning, redecorating, showing him ways to earn extra money… and his GD laundry. All while trying to keep my own life in check. And he lived over an hour away, so I was spending A LOT of time in the car commuting back and forth. I’m annoyed with myself just thinking about it.

I was operating from full on masculine energy and as a result the dynamic of the relationship began to shift. The first thing to go was sex. He used to say [I’m rolling my eyes hard, just thinking about it], “I need you to turn me on!”. Turn YOU on? You need me to do another thing for you! Buddy, I’m tried. I’ve been doing all the work and now you need ME to turn YOU on too. GTFOH.

Have you ever looked at your partner in totally disgust? For me it always seems to be a hard blink, followed by a glance out of the corner of your eye, then a slight shake of the head.

The words of my mother were ringing in my ears: “You’re never going to find someone perfect!” So I stayed and I continued to sacrifice. Maybe if I tried harder and gave more of myself things would figure themselves out. Eventually, he would find the inspiration he needed to get it together and we’d live happily ever after right? Wrong.

Spoiler: he never figured it out. I know, you’re shocked. I’ve randomly heard updates from mutual acquaintances who have confirmed, he’s still doing the exact same. Blaming external forces for his shortcomings and living in the comfort of his own misery. I was not meant to live in the suburbs, scraping by, while all my beauty and charm oozed out of me, slowly but surely, like sap on a tree, until there was no lifeforce left.

Have you ever looked back at photos of yourself when you were in a bad relationship? It’s like nothing’s left behind the eye. Even your complexion seems to change. It’s as if the blood in your body is pumping slower, with the intentionality of trying to communicate through reflection. Look at me, I’m a dead man walking. Call for help. SOS. That was me at the end.

When I finally broke it off I was shockingly devisted. I didn’t realize it at the time, but in constantly worrying about him, I’d lost me. I wasn’t grieving the end of the relationship. I was grieving me. Pained by feelings of inadequacy for another failed relationship. The anguish in realizing how much time I’d lost with myself. It was an eye opening moment when I consciously became aware that I’d completely lost myself.

When you’re a bright light, a beacon, a ray of MF sunshine, people are naturally drawn into your ecosphere. They urge to be close to you, to absorb your radiance and bask in the high vibrations. But sometimes they fly a little too close to the sun and are hit with a wave of amnesia - forgetting the true nature of who they are or tricking themselves into believing change is possible. But, in my experience, there’s always a caveat. Change can only occur if they get the girl, their new found sense of power. This is usually around the time when the love bombing starts.

The first time he said those 3 little words, we were in my studio apartment. We’d had a fun night out and were giggling in my bed when the words came tumbling out, I love you. My breath caught in my throat and I felt my whole body tense up. Then I proceeded to ignore it. I just pretended like it didn’t happen, that I didn’t hear it.

It had only been three weeks, if that. I liked him, but I didn’t even know if I liked, liked him enough to get into a full blown relationship. But that’s exactly what we did, because he was a good man - a man who [insert another eye roll] told me of all the plans and dreams he was in the middle of executing. Fast forward to lightless Christina, who’s fire was almost burned out.

And to think, I almost settled for this man.

🔮 Oracle Insights:

Starseed Oracle – Card #1. Soul whisperer: What your soul wants you to know. Card #2. Grounded Action: The Action your soul is guiding you to take.

What your soul wants you to know: The stars shower emanations onto Earth’s crystalline grid, which stores the ancient wisdom codes that Starseeds are here to activate and shift the planet’s vibration. This card suggests you may be called to work with the stars and the crystalline grid, guided to travel or visit local places to unlock cosmic codes with your presence. This card also signals that your light body is being activated; if this resonates, take things extra slow to integrate this vibrational change.

The action you’re being guided to take: New creations, beauty, and consciousness are longing to be born through you. You are the artist and the midwife, called to surrender to these creations and weave your part of the web of life. Creativity and intuition flow from the same sacred source, and to be human is to be creative. You are being called to surrender to a creative project, whether it’s a new business or simply weaving beauty into your home and cooking. Express yourself through the projects that both scare and excite you. Weave beauty back into everyday life, for the world needs the spirit and soul present where creativity thrives.