Things I Probably Shouldn't Tell You (But Will Anyway)

02.19 Weekly Drop ✨

Feb 19, 2026

In today’s mix of magic + musings: Upcoming ⚡️ Energy Update + 🪄 a spell to help alchemize. Followed by 🫶 Client Corner, 💁‍♀️ Story Time from me, 🔮 Oracle Insights from the heavens, 💕things I’m loving right now.

⚡️ Week of February 19 Energy Update:

I’m not an astrologer, I’m an alchemist, so my goal is to understand the energy. And this… is a big one.

🪐 On Friday, February 20th we’ll experience a Saturn-Neptune Conjunction. Get ready for a reset button on your life! Consider this the makeover you didn’t ask for. Illusions will be stripped away to reveal what’s actually real creating a total split, where the fake can no longer hide, and this one puts a spotlight on your relationship with money, personal motivation, and your deepest identity.

If you’ve been playing small or turning a blind eye to a toxic situation, expect a major reveal. The path is being cleared and your motivation is about to skyrocket. Stop apologizing for your magic and shine bright!

🪞 On Sunday, February 22 we have a numerological Mirror Portal. This is a day where your outer world reflects your inner growth, bringing along downloads and signs, which will confirm you’re on the right track.

The vibe is less about fixing and more about aligning with the people who match your new, upgraded frequency.

🌓 There’s a First Quarter Moon in Gemini on Tuesday, February 24th, where you might feel a bit scattered.

Use your discernment and don’t let the mental noise talk you out the magic you claimed on Friday.

🌪 Then on WEdnesday, February 25 we enter the Pre-Retrograde Shadow for the upcoming Mercury Retrograde.

If something feels delayed, just know it’s not a no, it’s a not yet.

💫This is your time to finally meet the version of yourself, that you’ve been manifesting. Step out of the shadows and stop asking for permission. It’s time to finally own your magic!

222 is the ultimate mirror number. It represents duality, partnership, and is a bridge between your inner world and outer reality. This ritual is about locking into and connecting in with your higher self, to reaffirm that you are perfectly aligned!

You’ll need:

A mirror, 2 white candles, a small bowl of water with a pinch of sea salt

Ritual:

Set the mood by dimming your lights and putting on some high frequency music (don’t worry I made you a playlist). Place your two candles on either side of the mirror (lighting them with intention) and the bowl of salt water in front of you.

Now look at yourself in the mirror. This isn’t a time to be critical or focused on your features, it’s about truly looking at yourself. It’s as if you’re almost looking through reflection, than at it. After a few moments, make eye contact and hold your gaze. Look deeply into your own eyes, the window to your soul, and allow your eyes to soften. After a few minutes state,

“What is for me cannot miss me. I am in total alignment with my highest path, and I allow the universe to reflect my worth back to me in tangible, beautiful ways.”

Stay in this soft gaze for few minutes longer. Nothing anything that comes in, but don’t force it. Whatever you see, sense, feel, or image is perfect for you. It could an emotion you feel or a word that suddenly pops into your mind. Maybe the lights flicker or you feel like your face has suddenly shifted. Just know whatever comes in for you, is meant for you!

Now you’ll seal it all in. Dip your fingers into the salt water and lightly flick a few drops toward the mirror, to lock in the high-vibrational frequencies you’ve just tapped into.

🫶 Client Corner

“I’ve never experienced anything like this before. You have no idea how much this has helped me!”

“Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” - Ferris Bueller 🤍

💁‍♀️ Story Time:

Can someone please tell me why I’m so attracted to a man who either looks like he’s been to prison, just came from prison, or will be arrested and on his way to prison any day now? Like, what is it about the eternal bad boy?

My first boyfriend was Jeremy, a piercer and tattoo artist who happened to work at the shop next to my job at the YWCA as a lifeguard. While he hadn’t been to prison, he definitely looked like he had plans. Face tats and all. Be still my beating heart.

My mom did not like that I was spending so much time hanging out at a tattoo parlor. Every day I would come home to an interrogation. “DID YOU GET A TATTOO?!'“ Nah girl, chill… I just pierced my nipples instead. lololol

Fast forward to a summer in Greece when she realized what I’d done and convinced me to take them out, stating our family would think ill of me. I believe the word whore was used. Then I ceremoniously unscrewed the metal barbells and dropped them into the Mediterranean. Because no, I didn’t want my mom or my family to think I was an 18 year old whore.

whore | /hôr/ | noun
derogatory - a prostitute.

Only to return home a month later and ask Jeremy to put a new set in. By that time they’d closed up and the only option was to pierce them again! Ugh. The second time around I didn’t have the stomach to do both because I knew the pain that was coming. So after 30 minutes of panic (from me) and a lot of patience (from Jeremy), he just repierced the one.

Even now, as I enter middle age, I’m still so into the bad boy type. Do I have any tattoos? No. Do I have plans to get any? Not a chance. Do I want my next boyfriend to be covered in them from head to toe? You bet your sweet ass I do.

The thing no one told me about entering your 40s is that along with your ovaries slowly dying, comes a level of spiciness I have never encountered before. I’m thinking about sex all the time. Wayyy more often than I’d like to admit. Teenage boys, they got nothing on me. But the problem is… well, there are a few problems:

I don’t leave the house as much as I’d like. When I do leave, it’s usually to the same five places.
Yeah, I meet guys out, but I hateeee texting, and dating requires a level of effort that I don’t always have the energy to put in. I need banter, and if I’m not getting that, I get bored very easily. I’m building an empire and would rather put my energy into my business, than fluffy conversations.
I don’t want to have bad sex. Sure, I could go find someone, but if it’s not good, then I’m going to be annoyed.
My body—we love her—but she ain’t at her best right now. I have had zero motivation to work out. Ever since my last breakup, I’ve lost the joy in lifting. We used to go to the gym together and I LOVED THAT. It was such a motivator, and now that I have no one pushing me to go, I just sit at home and work instead.

On Saturday, I had ‘quality time with myself’ three times. 3x! And I still wasn’t satiated. It’s wild. I mentioned this to some of my married friends to see if they’re going through the same seismic level of spiciness as I am, but I think they’re all too tired raising children. What a time to lack a boyfriend/husband/partner/’friend.’ 😑

seis·mic | /ˈsīzmik/ | adjective
relating to earthquakes or other vibrations of the earth and its crust. of enormous proportions or effect.

This might be TMI, but if we’re going to be friends, you need to know that I will, more often than not, always have something out of pocket to say. I’m also really good at saying the thing everyone is thinking. It’s called not thinking before you speak. 10/10 recommend.

I also think it’s my duty to share, because I wish someone had warned me about the sheer audacity of my libido that would enter my life like a hurricane and completely hijack my focus. But I’m not mad about it. Like any good witch, I’m harnessing that power for good. IYKYK. Maybe I’ll share more on that next time.

And if you’ve got any men in your life who are single, funny, and look like they’ve been to prison, are going to prison, or have just come back from prison, send ‘em my way ;)

If this resonated with you, tap the ❤️ so more people can find this message.
And share in the comments, your thoughts on men with face tattoos 😏 ?

🔮 Oracle Insights:

I decided to switch things up this week and pull a card from my Mystical Shaman Oracle deck, asking: What message does the collective need to hear?

THE ESSENCE:

The Wild Woman reminds you of your authenticity and freedom. Stripped of social constraints, she holds up a mirror to your true self – the bright light within that gets dimmed by society’s expectations. To be fully present, you must uncover that light and let it shine, regardless of consequences.

THE INVITATION:

You’re invited to shine brightly – your true self is being called to engage with the world. Your long-held dream is taking root and wants to be expressed. Have the courage to step into the light. The Wild Woman says: “Shine brightly, dance with abandon, be happy, and let the great spirit decide what happens.”

THE MEDICINE:

Excess for its own sake signals imbalance – a warning you may be trapped in obsessive thinking or behavior, seeking release in places that will never provide it. Let go, lest you become like the hungry ghost that can never be fulfilled. Just as a river needs banks to flow, you need boundaries. Simplify, be mindful, and connect to the light within.