The Girl Who Refused to Be Rescued

1.22 Weekly Drop ✨

Jan 22, 2026

In today’s mix of magic + musings: Upcoming ⚡️ Energy Update + 🪄 a spell to help alchemize. Followed by 💁‍♀️ Storytime from me, 🔮 Oracle Insights from the heavens, 💕things I’m loving right now.

⚡️ Week of January 22 Energy Update:

♒️ Mars, the planet of action, drive and willpower, enters revolutionary Aquarius on Fri, January 23. The energy shifts from traditional Capricorn to fighting for something bigger than yourself. The Sun, Mercury, Venus, and Mars are creating an Aquarius stellium, maximizing the energy for innovation and humanitarian efforts.

It’s the perfect time to go all in on a cause or community you care about, because it’s less about solo ambitions and more focused on collective action. With the Sun, Mercrut

♈️ On Mon, January 26th Neptune enters Aries permanently and will stay there until 2038. This hasn’t happened since 1875. Neptune’s spiritual energy meets Aries’ warrior spirit to dissolves boundaries and initiates action. This will force us to finally let go of old identities, so new ones can emerge.

This is the perfect time to release parts and aspects of yourself that no longer fit with the future vision of you. Like a literal phoenix rising from the ashes. You’re being called to become a spiritual warrior who acts from intuition and divine guidance.

💫This is your time to get comfortable being uncomfortable. It’s about trusting your instincts and taking unconventional action. You don’t need to have all the answers, you just need to have faith and courage!

At some point or another, we all desire change. Herbs have been used for thousands of years to support various ailments, desires, and intentions. If you're looking for transformation or need manifestation support, wear one of the following oils or incorporating them into your spellwork to amplify the energy and align with the natural forces around you.

East – the wind of intelligence: Lavender

Lavender is great for mental clarity, wisdom, new beginnings, communication, study, and travel.

South – of passion + change: Musk

Musk is great for drive, energy, courage, purification, transformation, breaking stagnant cycles, and general catchall for change

West – the wind of love + emotions: Rose

Rose is great for matters of the heart, healing, emotional depth, friendship, peace, and psychic awareness.

North – the wind of riches: Honeysuckle

Honeysuckle is great for prosperity, abundance, career success, grounding, stability, and matters of the physical world.

If your intention doesn't align with any of these specific directions, turn to South Wind, the wind of passion and transformation. It’s considered a catchall, breaking through stagnant energy and opening pathways for any change you wish to invite into your life.

“Success is stumbling from failure to failure with no loss of enthusiasm.“ - Sir Winston Churchill 🤍

💁‍♀️ Story Time:

As humans, we often live our lives based on expectations that stem from society and other people. For most of my life, I felt like I had to do and be a certain type of woman. I was expected to go to college, get married, and raise children behind a white picket fence in the suburbs, all while looking, being, and acting seemingly perfect. But I never wanted any of that.

As far back as I can remember, I’ve always said I wasn’t having children — to the point that people would joke I’d probably be the first one pregnant. But thanks to my little friend birth control, I’ve been able to dodge that bullet. I have zero interest in becoming a parent, and to be completely honest, it’s always sounded like a death sentence to me. When you spend your childhood managing other people’s emotions, it’s the last thing you want to do when you become an adult.

Sure, I wanted to go away and live the college dream, but not to learn. I wanted freedom from my parents and to party and meet boys. I had zero direction and even less interest in bettering myself. I was there for a good time.

By 20, I felt like I’d already lived 10 lives. I saw what the future could look like, and I wanted NO part of it. I wasn’t aware of it at the time, but I was chasing external validation, especially from men. I wanted Prince Charming to come in and sweep me away. For someone to see me and be so taken by the innateness of who I was that he just had to stop everything he was doing to save me.

prince charm·ing | /prin(t)s/ /ˈCHärmiNG/ | noun
a suitor who fulfills the dreams of his beloved
a man of often specious charm toward women

I wanted to be saved.

The thought of it now makes me want to puke in my mouth. I wanted to be saved, because I didn’t know I could save myself. I never thought I would have the strength and conviction to do it for myself. I didn’t even know that was an option. I thought man finds woman, clubs her over the head, and drags her back to his cave, where she dotes on his every whim and need.

At least, that’s what I’d learned in every show, book, or movie I’d consumed. It was also apparent in all the relationships mirrored back to me. It’s not that long ago that my yiayia found herself marrying a man who had been betrothed to her sister in an arranged marriage gone wrong. So, of course, I was led to believe that a man chooses a woman, she says yes, and he takes care of her. POOF all your problems disappear.

Reality has a funny way of knocking sense into you with a sledgehammer. Prince Charming wasn’t coming, and he sure as hell wasn’t going to save me. It was on me to do that. And if he had, I would have hated it. I for sure would have sabotaged the relationship.

Looking back, there were plenty of opportunities. Each one showed up as the epitome of perfection, with a desire to impress, but no matter what they did or how hard they tried, it was never enough, because what I really needed was inside of me. What I really needed was to deal with my own shit.

I can’t even begin to count the number of times my mom has told me I’m too picky. That “perfect doesn’t exist” and I’ll “never find anyone.” She just doesn’t “understand what the problem is.” The problem: I can’t and won’t ever settle. It’s not in my nature. Because I’m here to save myself.

pick·y | /ˈpikē/ | adjective
fastidious, especially excessively so

I’m here to work through my trauma and my issues, becoming an example in the process. My purpose is to illuminate what’s possible. To be an emotional Sherpa, strapping lost souls to my back and helping them climb the mountain of fear, trauma, and healing, without a scratch or catastrophe in sight. I’m here to hold space. To lead by example. To be proof of what’s possible on the other side.

If I had given that power up to another person then I would have been trapped in a life I never wanted. Living a superficial, inauthentic reality dictated by someone else, with as much depth as a puddle.

Running is seemingly easy. It often feels like the easy way out. It’s an escape from the realities of everyday life, a life that no longer serves your dreams or expectations—for those moments when it feels like you’re about to crawl out of your skin. What you don’t realize, when in the midst of running, is that it’s having the opposite of your desired effect and the true casualty is your happiness. It leaves you feeling empty, lost, and confused—as to how you actually got there, especially when everything looks ‘good on paper’.

Let me be your Sherpa. Let me help you figure it out. I’m not here to save you—only you can do that. But I can show you how to get there. I can light the way. I can hold your hand. I can show you it’s not so scary. The path to healing shouldn’t be filled with isolation or fear. It should be filled with support, possibility, and most of all, love. Because that’s what we all deserve… to be surrounded in love!

It is your divine right to be healed. To be empowered. To understand your own true strength and power. To live a life that serves your wildest dreams and ambitions!

🔮 Oracle Insights:

Starseed Oracle – Card #1. Soul whisperer: What your soul wants you to know. Card #2. Grounded Action: The Action your soul is guiding you to take.

What your soul wants you to know: The Blue Flame

This is a card of awakening and energetic upgrades. You may be experiencing a spontaneous awakening with visions or unusual experiences. In the West this process is often misunderstood, while other cultures honor it as sacred. The Blue Beings are believed to activate deep cellular and DNA healing during intense awakenings. Awakening is often glamorized, but it can be messy and challenging. Integration takes time, and without it we can feel ungrounded. If you are in this process, treat it as sacred and give yourself space to ground and integrate what you are moving through.

The action you’re being guided to take: Karmic Relationships

Orion is a constellation of polarity and unity. Some believe Starseeds from this lineage are incarnated on Earth, replaying karmic relationship patterns. You may be one of them. Polarity creates conflict, yet conflict also offers growth and deeper connection. When we soften our hearts, acknowledge our wounds, and seek understanding, we find common ground. We are all longing to be seen and understood. How can you release defensiveness, see the innocence in others, and choose connection over separation?