Taking Back the Power of My Voice

10.20 Weekly Drop ✨

Oct 16, 2025

Here’s what you’ll find in today’s mix of magic + musings: ⚡️ Energetic Color of the Day Chart, 🌕 Next Week’s Energy Update + 🌟 How best to work with it, 💁‍♀️ a peek inside Christina’s world, 🔮 Oracle Insights, & 💕 what I’m loving right now.

⚡️ Energetic Color of the Day:

Each day carries its own frequency and colors act like amplifiers for that energy. Wearing, carrying, or surrounding yourself with the day’s color helps you align more fully with its vibe. Think of it as dressing in sync with the universe!

Week of Oct 20th Energy Update:

✨ You may notice a pivot in energy this week from social grace and harmony to deep inner work and truth-seeking. The time for skimming the surface is done and you’re being called to dive deeper.

🌑 The New Moon in Libra on the 21st offers a final invitation to find balance and fairness in your relationships. This energy supports clarity and a clean emotional slate. Which is why you should set intentions for how you want to give and receive love.

This week take a final action step to initiate balance. Send that message, finalize an agreement, or create the routine that brings you back into rhythm with yourself.

♏ The Sun moves into Scorpio on the 22nd, ushering in a profound energetic shift. The vibe shifts from light-hearted connection to intense focus, vulnerability, and transformation. This is the energy of research, intimacy, shedding the old, and facing uncomfortable truths.

Ask yourself (with compassion): What are you holding onto out of fear? This is the season to gently, yet firmly, release control, face your shadows, and embrace deep, emotional honesty.

♆ Neptune, the planet of dreams, spirituality, and illusion, retrogrades back into Pisces on the 22nd. This re-entry into its home sign invites us to review and refine our spiritual boundaries and healing practices.

Notice where your energy flows this week. Are you absorbing other people’s emotional baggage? Revisit practices that help you feel safe, centered, and whole, and consciously pull back your energy from anything that feels draining or unclear.

💫 This is your time to trade in the pursuit of ‘perfect’ harmony for something way more fun: your authentic self. With the intensity of Scorpio Season, think of it as a cosmic permission slip to pull out your best detective hat, ditch any draining social obligations, and unapologetically protect the good energy you’ve got. Let’s make this deep work feel good

🌟 Need help? Try this:

Next week’s energy is ideal for shedding what you owe - this can be time, energy, obligations, even debt, cutting emotional cords, and taking back your personal power. This ritual isn’t about passively journaling, it’s strategic and meant to produce tangible feelings of release in your body. When you feel it, you become it, and the Universe has no other option, then to bend to your will.

First, we take inventory. Get a fresh piece of paper and list everything you feel drains your power or puts you into energetic debt. Don’t over think, write whatever comes to mind. This could be guilt about breaking a promise, toxic patterns that continue to show up in your life, financial debt, feeling resentful towards a coworker, etc.

Now, we declare. At the bottom of the page write: “I acknowledge these debts and burdens. By my own will, I take the power back. I am fully cleared of the obligation to carry that which does not serve my highest good. I declare I am sovereign now.”

Next, we take action. Use a fire-safe bowl and ignite the paper with the intent of consuming the energy you have listed. As it burns, visualize all the weight and obligations lifting off of your shoulders and energetic body, into the ether. If you can’t burn, tear the paper into pieces and submerge in water, then dispose of it outside of your home.

Last, we seal. Take immediate physical action to seal in your energy. Spray yourself in protection oil, take a salt bath, or stand centered with your hands over your heart and stomach and emit a strong resonant hum like ‘Aum”. Then affirm: '“My energy is my own. I am protected and whole.”

💁‍♀️ Personal Update:

This week I did something incredibly scary. Well, scary for me. I talked about being an Energy Healer in front of my mom. You might be rolling your eyes or wondering why this moment is so monumental. It’s because I’m living a life that’s in complete alignment for me and in stark contrast to what my parents hoped for me. Insert:

The Boomer Life Plan: go to college, get a boyfriend, promise your life away to a corporate job, get married husband, have kids 2.5 kids, and move to the suburbs.

Instead I followed:

The Christina Nikols Life Plan: go to college, find out you have a surprise diagnosed of cancer, return to college (← major regret), break up with your long-term boyfriend, stay at a corporate job (that sucks the life out of you), breakup with another boyfriend, find another life sucking corporate job, breakup with a couple more boyfriends, live by yourself, breakup with man you thought you were going to marry, quit your corporate job, and start your own business without the support of any family.

I have never wanted to have children. Since childhood I always said, ‘I’m never having kids’. People would tell me, ‘be careful, you’ll probably be the first one!’. But there was a fundamental split: my body felt the pull, yet the desire still wasn’t there. I can’t even tell you the amount of times my mom has said, ‘please have one for me’ or (my favorite), ‘I’ll take care of it on the weekends, so you can still go out with your friends’. Wild.

Lesson #27: don’t have children for other people.

A great follow up to

Lesson #26: don’t have kids in an attempt to save your relationship.

It’s ironic because I’m such a nurturing, maternal person, but I could never see myself as a mother. In fact, there was a period of time where friends would share pregnancy news, and I would immediately burst into tears. I would have these emotional responses to the idea of having a baby, yet I still didn’t want one. How could I love children so much and have such a an intense physical reaction to the thought of carrying one, yet not want to have one?

I’m sure a therapist would be able to provide a FUN explain, but I believe it’s because I’m meant to follow a different path. I’ve heard one too many times that the road to becoming a Master Healer can be very lonely. There’s continuous, intense self-reflection and personal evolution that needs to happen, which would make most people uncomfortable. It’s not easy to confront all your shadows, faults, and insecurities every single day, in an attempt to expand and grow, but I’ve found true purpose.

This requires reaching a certain level of enlightenment, bliss, self-love, and (yes, sometimes) even delusion, so you can guide others down the path of healing. To be completely honest, I’m uncomfortable most of the time. BUT you’d never know - and I’d never tell - because as such a naturally happy, cheerful person, I’d rather not talk about the shadows I’ve been staring down all day long.

My mother has a devout relationship with Christianity. Her faith is the backbone of her beliefs. I, too, have a strong relationship with God, but one that is far less patriarchal and cruel. So when someone asks what I do in front of my mom, I tense up for two reasons 1) I can feel her energy and 2) her energy is screaming ‘I’m uncomfortable, and Christina’s going to hell.’

But Christina, why don’t you explain Energy Healing to her? Trust me, I’ve tried, but it doesn’t always land. I take 50% responsibility. I’m sure it has to do with my delivery, as I revert back to being an emotional child, who can’t properly communicate her needs, while simultaneously not wanting to disappoint her mother. The other 50% - that isn’t mine to carry or explain.

So when this stranger asked, ‘what do you do?’ I had a choice. I could make my mother uncomfortable or stay small and retreat to my usual whisper. I’ve spent a majority of my life trying to make other people feel comfortable or ‘happy’ with me. I’ve changed who I am to accommodate everyone else’s expectations and it’s fucking exhausting. So ya know what I did? I finally honored myself and proudly stated: I'M AN ENERGY HEALER. I could immediately feel my mom stiffen behind me.

In case there’s any question, I love my mom. I love her more than anyone. Loving her is not the problem. The problem is loving myself. I don’t expect my mom to approve or fully grasp what I do. I’m not going to rub it in her face, but I’m also not going to deny my gifts and abilities any longer. I have an incredible gift for helping people overcome trauma, grief, heartbreak, illness - a laundry list of transformation they never thought was possible. Why on earth would I hold that back from the world? Who is that serving?!

The whole purpose of all of this is to live in authentically. Facing my demons, healing my past, and constantly engaging in self reflection isn’t because I’m a glutton for punishment. It’s because the more authentic I am, the better I’ll be able to serve others. Which leads me to my two new rules:

No. 1. No more lying

It’s not that I was a liar before, but I would stretch the truth or omit details once and a while. But now, no lying at all. It feels too low frequency for me to want any part of it.

No. 2 No more gossiping

I’m only going to say things about a person that I would say to their face. And let me tell you, this little rule really makes you filter your words… or not. It has also shown me how courageous I actually am. There are a bunch of people I would willingly talk shit and that’s incredibly freeing. Because I feel more confident than I ever and I’ve come to realize there immense power in this voice.

My hope in sharing these victories is to encourage even just one person to stand up for themselves. It’s important to know what’s possible by sharing our lessons. When we help each other rise, then the people around us will naturally rise also. A true domino effect. The happier and more confident we show up in the world, the more confidently others around us will follow.

Would love to know what you do to help yourself grow, expand, and stand in your full confidence. 🤍

🔮 Oracle Insights:

Starseed Oracle – Card #1. Soul whisperer: What your soul wants you to know. Card #2. Grounded Action: The Action your soul is guiding you to take.

What your soul wants you to know: Birth is a sacred portal—an invitation to step into new life. The Hathors remind you that you are a child of the Cosmic Mother, forever held in her infinite love. This card is a tender call to rest in her embrace, to mother yourself and others, and to surrender to your creative flow. If you’re moving through transition or uncertainty, remember: you are deeply supported, watched over, and wrapped in more love than you can imagine. Let the Mother’s presence fill and soften you; let her love remind you that you’re never alone.

The action you’re being guided to take: You don’t have to carry it all. This card is a gentle reminder to care for your own well-being first—to refill your cup before tending to others. You’re thanked for the way you hold so much, for wanting to heal and help, but the world doesn’t need you burnt out—it needs you whole. Set boundaries that protect your energy, and start each day by nourishing your body, mind, and spirit. From that fullness, you can meet the world with grace and compassion, releasing what’s not yours to hold and letting your light do the quiet work it came here to do.