My Fat Girl Guide to Forgiveness

04.16 Weekly Drop ✨

Apr 16, 2026

In today’s mix of magic + musings: Upcoming ⚡️ Energy Update + 🪄 a spell to help alchemize. Followed by 🫶 Client Corner, 💁‍♀️ Story Time from me, 🔮 Oracle Insights from the heavens, 💕things I’m loving right now.

⚡️ Week of Thursday, April 16 Energy Update:

We are in the middle of an Aries Grand Stellium! SEVEN planets in one sign = Sun, Moon, Mercury, Mars, Saturn, Chiron, Neptune, and Chiron. Fiery Aries is the first sign in the zodiac and the archetype of new beginnings, courage, and taking action even when you’re scared. When the sky looks like this the message isn’t subtle. It’s an energetic permission slip to go after what you want!

🌞 Chiron Cazimi on Thurs, April 16

The Sun is sitting exactly on top of Chiron, the Wounded Healer. This is called a cazimi and means the planet is in the heart of the sun, shining a spotlight on areas of your life where you may have unresolved wounds around self-trust or self-assertion.

Remember you can’t heal what you can’t see, so this activation is a good thing, even if it does feel a little raw.

🌑 New Moon in Aries on Fri, April 17

This is the first New Moon of the entire astrological new year, which means it’s extra potent and the perfect day to set intentions as the theme of this lunar cycle is healing through action, not waiting until you’re ready. Think of movement as medicine. Plusss it’s sitting right next to Chiron, so healing is literally baked into this lunan cycle.

I highly suggest you journal, take a healing bath, or schedule a healing! Do anything that feels like or supports a fresh start.

🪐 Mars Conjunct Saturn on Sun, April 19

The energy of Mars (planet of action) and Saturn (planet of structure) are merging in Aries, creating some interesting tension. If something in your life genuinely isn’t ready to move forward yet, Saturn will make that very obvious. But if you’re clear on your direction, Saturn will turn any impulsivity into focused energy, giving you the endurance you need.

💫This is your time to begin. Stop overthinking and take action NOW!

🪄 Alchemize the Energy: Intention Setting + Affirmation

It’s the perfect day to make the Money Bowl from last week’s blog!

You'll Need: 2 pieces of paper, a pen, + something to stick it to your mirror

The Ritual: Start by putting on some high vibrational music. Take a few deep breaths and let yourself arrive in the moment. Now write down 5 things you want to call in. It’s important you don’t over thing this step. Write what you actually want, big or small. Now read back through your list and circle the one that feels most alive. Go for the one that makes you feel a little nervous, yet excited.

Now write down 3 real, actionable steps you can take over the next month that would move you towards it. It’s important to no over compliment this step. Think about what’s actually attainable. Maybe it’s posting a video, making a phone call, or setting time aside to research a class or project you’ve been thinking about. Remember, small steps allow for big action. The place the paper somewhere you’ll see it (such as your alter, desk, or nightstand).

On the second piece of paper, write yourself a loving affirmation in the present tense. Something that the bravest version of you already knows to be true. Stick this on your bathroom mirror and leave it there until the Aries Full Moon on September 26th. Close by taking one more deep breath and stating out loud: I am ready!

🫶 Client Corner

Working with Christina has been an absolute life changing and joyful experience. She's incredibly gifted and expertly, gently, and lovingly taps into your inner being and generational background to heal at a spiritual and cellular level. I've never experienced anything like it!

Her honesty, integrity, and upbeat way of communicating truths you need to hear resonate perfectly for anyone. I highly recommend a session (or two or three!) with her if you want to turbocharge progress in your life through her gentle, yet powerful healing.

“Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn't know before you learned it.” - Maya Angelou 🤍

💁‍♀️ Story Time:

When I was super fat, I didn’t know I was fat, which I know sounds crazyyyy. It’s hard to explain, but when I moved my body it just felt normal. Now don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t in denial about being fat. I knew my friends weren’t experiencing the chafing pain of thighs rubbing together and breasts that stretched out every top I owned. But feeling into and moving my body it felt the same as it does now. I thought when I’d lost all that weight I’d suddenly feel… different.

And when I didn’t, there was a certain level of disappointment. I’d been searching for a massive change and shift for most of my teenage and young adult life. That pinnacle moment, when I would finally feel connected back into myself, but it never came.

Sure I felt more confident and sexy, but that was because my clothes finally fit properly and I could wear what I wanted. I had gone through a huge transformation, but when I was alone, one-on-one with myself, I still felt the same. I can’t be the only one who’s searched for answers and come up empty handed. Who’s done a complete 180 only to realize the same person’s still reflecting back at you in the mirror. It was then that I understood there was so much more to me than this physical body.

I might lose some of you with this, but when I young I would lay in bed and could feel my etheric bodies radiating out beyond my physical body. The feeling wasn’t static, there was movement and it had a gentle pulse, almost like a hum that was moving in unison.

eth·er·ic bod·y | /əˈTHerik ˈbädē/ | noun
The first or lowest layer of the human aura, consisting of a subtle energy field that serves as a vital blueprint for the physical body.
An energetic “double” that mirrors the physical form, responsible for the absorption and distribution of life force (prana or chi) through the nervous system and glands.
The bridge between the dense physical matter of the body and the more subtle astral or emotional planes.

If you’ve ever taken a generous dose of psilocybin you’ll know what I mean. It’s like when you notice all the molecules, in everything around you moving. Vibrating ever so slight, with their own heartbeat of energy, even though the objects you’re looking at are solid.

In the wee hours of the night I could feel the rippling of my own energy moving outward from my body. But as I got older I started to disconnect from my body. I learned to hate it. I criticized every aspect of it as it grew from child to adult. Feeling shame about the one thing I couldn’t change, that was mine and mine alone. I was relentless.

You see, the more cruel I was to my body, the more wound up my nervous system became. And the more wound up my nervous system got, the less connected I was into my intuition, which sent me searching for answers outside of myself. Looking for hope, love, and acceptance from anyone and everyone.

Plus my body was littered with trauma. Holding onto weight as a means for protection, but I didn’t see it that way. I saw it as an act of rebellion. My body and I were at odds, fighting a battle I didn’t even know existed. The more I pushed, the harder it rebelled, until one day I finally surrendered.

For years I tried to get back to the state of conscious awareness, laying in bed trying so hard to feel into my energy bodies, only to come up fruitless. My body didn’t feel safe enough to allow me to tap into theses higher levels of energy. And to be honest, why would it? It’s not like I was providing an optimal environment built on love and trust. I wasn’t actually doing anything to support myself. Indulgence ran the show and discipline was nonexistent.

We truly don’t know, what we don’t know. If you’ve never experienced your own power, then how do you know if you have it? If you’ve been operating under the same mindset and conditioning for years on end, how do you even know to change it? If you’ve been playing small, safe, or scared, how do you find the courage to go big?

Insert My Fat Girl Guide to Forgiveness:

Step 1: Get real with yourself! All those feelings and emotions you’ve been avoiding like the plague aren’t going anywhere. In fact, they’re just going to manifest into serious health problems, until you start giving them the attention they’re so desperately craving.

Step 2: Be nice to yourself. Get out of your own bullshit and take responsibility for your life, but through the lense of compassion. I was fat, because I was searching for safety and comfort. I was a child who didn’t know how to process her emotions properly and I was surrounded by people who didn’t know how to help me, because they also hadn’t learned how to process their emotions. If we don’t have the tools to help ourselves, then how can we be to blame?!

Step 3: Take action. Ngl people do not like this step. So I want to call out any resistance you may have, because it requires you to stop living in victimhood. In step 3, you stop pointing fingers and/or looking for pity. I hate to break it to you, but your pain and trauma does not make you special. Everyone is dealing with something. It’s about taking radical responsibility for who you are. You are no longer a victim of circumstance, you are the creator of your reality. Once you realize that, moving in the direction of your dreams becomes a hell of a lot easier.

Step 4: Operate from a place of love. In everything you do, ask yourself: am I moving towards love or away from love? Then act accordingly. Now sure, there are moments when you want to move away from love, we’re human after all. This guiding principle really helped me navigate away from a victim mindset. It gave me permission to show myself kindness and compassion. Allowing me to understand the cause and effect of my actions, additions, and behaviors. It gave me the strength to try and fail, then try again. To finally realize, I was bigger and better than the story I’d been telling myself all along!

Step 5: Allow yourself to heal. Find practices, modalities, and people who will support and lift you up. Healing isn’t meant to be done alone, so lien on your support system. The people who love you, WANT to help you.

After that forgiveness came naturally and all the extra weight I’d been holding onto for so many years, literally fell off my body. Because I finally got out of my own way and gave myself the thing, I’d been craving for so long… Love❣️

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🔮 Oracle Insights:

This week the cards are speaking with one voice: come home to yourself. Not the version of you that's been pushing through, performing, or waiting to feel ready — the real one. The one that knows they're held, that their body is wise, and that their life is meant to feel like something. With one of the most powerful cosmic resets of the year happening overhead, the cards are confirming what the sky is already saying. This is not a week to white-knuckle your way forward. It's a week to soften, tend to yourself, and move from a place of genuine devotion rather than urgency. The medicine is already inside you. TRUST IT.