I Stopped Being Perfect + Started Being Me.

02.12 Weekly Drop ✨

Feb 12, 2026

In today’s mix of magic + musings: Upcoming ⚡️ Energy Update + 🪄 a spell to help alchemize. Followed by 💁‍♀️ Story Time from me, 🔮 Oracle Insights from the heavens, 💕things I’m loving right now.

⚡️ Week of February 12 Energy Update:

Buckle up buttercup, because we are officially sliding into one of the most transformative weeks of the year!

🪐 Saturn enters Aries on Friday the 13th for the first time in almost 30 years, giving us a massive cosmic leveling up. We move from processing emotions, to taking responsibility for our actions.

We’re not outsourcing our authority anymore! It’s time to trust yourself and your intuition.

Forget everything you’ve been told about this unlucky day. Friday the 13th has had some bad PR because in the witchy world it’s known as the Day of Reclamation! Friday is Freyja’ Day, the Norse Goddess of Love + Magic, and 13 represents the divine feminine cycles.

This night is also sacred to Hecate, the Goddess of the Crossroads. She stands with her torches lit, waiting to show you which path to take. If you’ve been feeling lost, Hecate is handing you the keys to your own future today.

Friday the 13th is a day to take your power back! You are being asked to take radical responsibility for your life. No more "waiting for a sign." You are the sign.

♥️ Valentine’s Day is on Saturday, February 14th where emotional honesty will be your greatest aphrodisiac.

🌑 On Tuesday, Feb 17 we have a New Moon Solar Eclipse in Aquarius. Eclipses don’t care about your comfort zone—they care about your alignment. They are the universe’s way of hitting the fast forward button, accelerating your timelines and catapulting you onto the path you were actually meant for. If something falls away, let it. You’re being pushed into alignment.

If you’re feeling weird or restless, that’s your nervous system undergoing a major cosmetic software upgrade. Your body is literally rewiring for a higher frequency, so be radically gentle with yourself while you integrate the shift.

🧧 February 17th is also Lunar New Year - The Year of the Fire Horse. This type of energy only comes around every 60 years. This next year will be filled with unstoppable momentum, radical independence, and a burn it down to built it better attitude. It’s about freedom, passion, and ambition!

Way to prepare for the Lunar New Year: deep clean your home, clean out your closets, and make sure your front door and entryway (aka the Mouth of Qi) are ready to welcome in new fresh energy!
DO: Wear bright colors, especially red for luck or orange and gold for wealth. Open your windows to let the old energy out. Eat long foods, which represent longevity and a long, successful life. Pay off small debts for a clean financial slate. Get a new, head to toe, outfit and wear it proudly.
DON’T: Wash your hair on the 17th, otherwise you’ll wash away the good luck. Don’t use scissors or sharp objects otherwise you may cut the threads of good fortune. Don’t clean or sweep or you’ll remove good luck. And definitely don’t argue or cry, because how you act on the 17th sets a tone for the next 12 months!

🪄 Alchemize the Energy: Instant Success Ritual:

There is a famous Chinese phrase, Ma Dao Cheng Gong, which means “instant success upon the arrival of the horse.” On the 17th, write your biggest goal for 2026 on a piece of paper and place it under a candle. Visualize yourself crossing the finish line with ease.

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you've imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simple.” - Henry David Thoreau”🤍

💁‍♀️ Story Time:

I don’t know about you, but I’ve always felt like people were trying to put me in a box. To categorize and label me as a certain type of person, pushing me to conform to their ideals and beliefs about how I should be, look, or behave.

It started young. Christina, don’t act like that, don’t talk like that, and you should definitely not look like that. Watch your mouth, fix your hair, did you even put makeup on? Where are your shoes? You need to act like a lady!

At every turn there was a focus on the lack. It felt like nothing was ever right. When you have such a critical lens on your flaws, it’s easy to get lost and have no direction. Because what’s being reinforced is that YOU, as a whole, are not good the way you are. BUT if you change to be like everyone else, THEN you will be loved and accepted.

Ah, such a simple formula. Just change every single thing about you, then you’ll be perfect.

Growing up under constant scrutiny does have its benefits. It’s made me a chameleon. It’s probably why I can get along with just about anyone. Drop me into any scenario and I’ll do well. I’ve spent so much time modifying myself to fit the expectations of others that I can easily shapeshift.

shapeshift | /ˈSHāpˌSHift/ | verb
(especially in fantasy fiction or mythology) undergo a transformation in state, form, or appearance.

I used to call it being a China Doll. A beautiful, porcelain doll that sits on a shelf. Who is seen, not heard, with not a hair out of place. The epitome of perfection.

Someone gag me with a spoon.

At some point I learned it was easier to conform than fight. It reminds me of a wild horse who’s been broken. Taming the wild beast through dominance, force, and in my case nagging.

I just don’t get why we need to have labels on everything. Especially people! We are these fluid, ever-evolving creatures who grow and learn and change day by day, so WHY do we put so much emphasis on categorizing each and every one of us?

I feel like I’ve lived 100 lives, and through all the experiences I’ve come to realize that nothing was ever wrong with me. I didn’t actually need to change. What I needed to do was embrace myself for who I was. I needed to embrace my authenticity. The only way that I realized I could do that, the only way I had the confidence to do that, the only way I found comfort and peace in myself was through healing.

I exhausted so much energy forcing myself into a box of everyone else’s expectations, but the only expectations I should have ever been focused on were the ones I had for myself.

That’s why nothing ever worked for me. Because it wasn’t me. It wasn’t for me. When you’re trying to live by the rules and expectations of other people, you’re always going to disappoint them. And even more so, you’re going to disappoint yourself.

The freedom I found in healing is what allowed me to really step into my own sovereignty. It allowed me to find freedom in who I am. It allowed me to show up as multiple things: as Hungover Barbie, as a healer, as a friend, as a lover, as a hoodrat, as someone who is deeply connected to angels, as someone who is extremely emotional.

More than anything, it allowed me to fall in love with myself and realize nothing was ever wrong with who I am. I didn’t ever need to change. I didn’t need to modify or adjust who I was because I was perfect as I am. What I needed to do was find my voice.

When you feel a tug or a pull at something, it is validation that you’re headed in the right direction. When you are surrounded by fear and unknowing, it’s a call out from your nervous system that something in you needs your attention.

nerv·ous sys·tem | /ˈnərvəs/ /ˈsistəm/ | noun
the body’s primary communication and control network, composed of the brain, spinal cord, and a vast network of nerves. It regulates bodily functions—ranging from breathing and movement to thought and emotion—by sending electrochemical signals between the brain and the rest of the body.

And when find the strength and courage to show up for yourself and do things that honor the truth of who you are, a whole world of possibilities opens up. Because when you fall in love with yourself, everything changes. Once you’re able to make these shifts internally, your external world begins to shift. It’s not something that can be faked or manufactured. It’s confidence from the inside out.

Happiness literally oozes from every cell of your being. Your aura radiates and enters a room before you do. You’re filled with a level of abundance and joy that you never thought was possible. Not because you’re trying, but because it just naturally, innately pours out of you.

To feel so happy and so good is what makes all the bullshit before it so worth it. Healing has brought levels of gratitude into my life that I never thought were possible. It brought me here, to this now moment, and I wouldn’t change a thing.

It’s perfectly imperfect, just like me, and I’m so fortunate now to see the beauty in all of it! I want to show everyone what’s possible. The key to unlocking it all is within you!

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🔮 Oracle Insights:

Starseed Oracle – Card #1. Soul whisperer: What your soul wants you to know. Card #2. Grounded Action: The Action your soul is guiding you to take.

What your soul wants you to know: Fall Into My Arms

The Great Mother has held you from your first breath and will be there for your last. She knows how hard it is to be human — the loneliness, the polarity, the extremes. Yet it’s through these highs and lows that we grow. This card invites you to welcome both the agony and the ecstasy, the beauty and the bitterness, as part of your initiation into life. Lay your fears, sorrows, and burdens on Her altar and let yourself be held. The more wildly life’s pendulum swings, the more fully you can say, I have truly lived.

The action you’re being guided to take: I’m Sorry

The I’m Sorry card is a call to soften our defenses and look beyond right and wrong. True unity begins when we face the shadows (our own, our ancestors’, and the collective) with honesty and compassion. This isn’t about blame, but about acknowledging where harm has been done and choosing to unwind those patterns. When we say “I’m sorry” with an open heart, we create space for forgiveness, healing, and the deeper connection our souls have always longed for.