Breaking the Rules That Once Broke Me

12.04 Weekly Drop ✨

Dec 04, 2025

In today’s mix of magic + musings: Upcoming ⚡️ Energy Update + 🪄 a spell to help alchemize. Followed by 🫶 Client Corner, 💁‍♀️ a personal update from me, 🔮 Oracle Insights from the heavens, 💕things I’m loving right now.

⚡️ Week of Dec 4 Energy Update:

🌝 Tonight is the Full Cold Supermoon in Gemini. Seeing as how it’s 5°s in Chicago, I’d say this is supremely accurate. Supermoons = Amplifiers. Gemini is all about communication and mental processing. It’s urging you let go of the energetic noise and the mental clutter that has been keeping you stuck or stagnant.

It’s time to release all of this before moving into the new year, a year 1 (2+0+2+6=10). Give yourself permission to to detox what’s no longer serving you and rewrite the story you’ve been telling yourself!

🪐 On the 8th, Mars squares Saturn. Squares = Tension. The planet of action, Mars, will be up against the planet of structure, Saturn.

Frustrations will be met with obstacles, but that’s because we’re being forced to slow down. It’s about patience over force.

♓️ On Dec 10th Neptune stations direct in Pisces. This marks a major karmic release point in a 13 year cycle of spiritual evolution and collective delusion. Your intuition and creativity will reawaken bringing in much needed clarity.

You might want to keep a journal by your bed, because the 10th will be prime dreamtime. Dreams are keys to the subconscious mind and our inner wisdom, so take note before the memory of it fades and slips into the ether.

💫 This is your time to release stagnant energy and trust yourself, trust your intuition. Allow the quiet yet powerful voice inside of you to guide every step. When you release old beliefs, your energy naturally snaps back into alignment and your future becomes unmistakably clear.

🪄 Alchemize the Energy: Full Moon in Gemini Release

This is the last Full Moon of 2025 and Full Moons are all about releasing! Gemini rules over communication, duality, and the mind, which is exactly why you should do a releasing ritual tonight.

Grab your journal and reflect on this past year. Consider it a purge of everything you’ve done, set out to do, accomplished, failed, and discovered. Nothing is off limits.

How did you feel? Who did you become? What was significant about how you moved through the world? Where did you fall short? What held you back? What emotions did you feel?

Gemini is curious so look for themes, patterns, and behaviors. This is a releasing ritual, so get everything down on paper. Don’t overthink, just follow the pattern of your thoughts.

When you done, flip to a new fresh page. Now reflect on how you want to show up in 2026. Don’t limit yourself. Write down your wildest dreams and desires. Get excited about the possibility of having your dream life and accomplishing everything you’ve set out to do. Feel into these emotions (that’s the key to manifesting!).

Now compare the two lists. Gemini = duality (the twins), which is why we’re looking back and into the future. Identify what you did in 2025 that doesn’t align with the future you want in 2026. What do you want to release?

This is about setting the intention, through ritual, to let it all go!

When you’re done rip that paper to shreds! With each tear, imagine releasing that which no longer serves you. Feel empowerment coursing through your veins. With each shred of the paper, image stepping into the life of your dreams. Actually feel how good it would be to have everything you desire. Allow yourself to get lost in these feelings and when you’re done declare: And so it is.

🫶 Client Corner

I’ve been creating a Self-Love program over the past three months and yesterday I received the most incredible feedback from a few of the participants who are testing it out.

“The first healing was incredibly impactful.”

“I went to another place. I don’t know where I went, but I know it wasn’t here.”

“I felt a massive release.”

This is your sign, to follow your dreams! ☁️

“It’s about massive, consistent, imperfect, action” - Tish Dignam🤍

💁‍♀️ Personal Update:

I’ve been planning this day for 5 months and now that my program launch is one week away I’m having a full blown panic attack. Fucking imposter syndrome.

im·pos·tor syn·drome | /imˈpästər/ /ˈsinˌdrōm/ | noun
A psychological pattern where individuals doubt their accomplishments and have a persistent, internal fear of being exposed as a “fraud” despite external evidence of their success. People with imposter syndrome often attribute their achievements to external factors like luck rather than their own abilities. This can lead to feelings of self-doubt, anxiety, and a fear of success.

It’s so scary to be vulnerable. It’s so scary to put yourself out there. Especially when you’ve always been told to keep quiet and not to share, out of shame and embarrassment… that was never yours. Forced into a box of perfectionism. Deterred from vulnerability, honesty, and realness out of fear of disappointing others.

Fear that if you don’t ‘follow the rules’ you’ll be ostracized. That no one will love you. Left with empty, lonely feelings of inadequacy and self-hatred. Living in the familiarity of uncomfortability. Realizing you have no love left in the body. No love left for yourself, because you’ve given it all to other people in an attempt to fix your broken heart.

Following all the rules. Doing “the right” thing. Acting. Pretending. Masking. Only for it to come crumbling down all around you. Being left dazed and confused, trying to pick up all the pieces.

I never thought I could break free. I never thought I could feel whole. I never thought I was worthy. The concept was always so foreign. I didn’t even know what worth was. Let alone the idea of being able to live for myself.

To truly live for me without wearing a coat of armour hidden behind sarcasm and emotional deflection. A life rooted in authenticity, freedom, and kindness, not for others - as a chronic people pleaser - but to myself. I didn’t actually know any of this was possible.

What’s it like to not live in shame of your past… or even your present? What’s it like to be shown love, the way you need to be loved? What’s it like to look in the mirror and feel something other than criticism, hatred, or self-loathing? And to that point, what’s it like to be able to even face yourself in the mirror?

For a long time I didn’t know. For a long time it didn’t feel safe to even find out. But thank God I did. Thank God I’ve always been a rebel. Never afraid to go against the grain. I was always willing to push the envelope, regardless of consequence or repercussion. Because I never wanted to conform.

re·bel·lious | /rəˈbelyəs/ | adjective
showing a desire to resist authority, control, or convention

The driving force behind all of this has always been my rebellious, fiery spirit. It’s kept me curious. And the only way to feed that curiosity is through learning. It allowed me to explore depths of knowledge I didn’t even know existed. It confirmed ideas and suspicions I had about life. It opened my eyes.

That’s how I knew I could change. I could evolve. I didn’t have to stay suck in unhealthy patterns of self-hatred and shame, all while gas-lighting the shit out of myself into thinking I could never have or deserve better.

I’ve done so much work to get to this place in my journey. I’ve spent the greater half of my life trying to heal. But that’s the thing about self-esteem. Even when you’ve done all the work and you’ve found true, joyous, overflowing love for self, your old behaviors can still start to creep back in. It’s fucked up, but there’s comfort in those old thought patterns, because at some point they protected me, they kept me safe.

But curiosity… curiosity made me strong. I’m not a girl who needs to be protected anymore. I’m the girl who shows other women what’s possible when you give yourself a chance!

Which has brought me here. To this exact moment. Less than a week out from hard launching my Self-Love Program and my stomach is in knots, because I once again need to be vulnerable and put myself out there.

After an incredible (almost 1 year) of being an entrepreneur, a solopreneur if you will, I realize that I’d rather be uncomfortable posting one of my Tiktoks on Instagram, than believing I didn’t deserve to live the best life possible.

🔮 Oracle Insights:

What your soul wants you to know:

Lay lines are invisible pathways of Earth energy that link sacred sites around the world, much like meridians in the body, and many cultures have long sensed and honored them. In Aboriginal Australia, song lines trace the Dreaming paths of creator beings, carrying the land’s memory through songs and dances. Visiting or tending these sacred places is believed to activate something within us and within the planet, inviting a deeper relationship with the land and its guardians so it can hold and nourish us more fully.

Activation: Now whisper the following ‘I honor and thank the keepers of the Earth beneath me, known and unknown. Thank you for the nourishment and tender holding.’

The action you’re being guided to take:

We’re living in divisive times, and when we’re hurt we often take things as personal attacks instead of invitations to heal. Our souls remember unity, yet we can’t pretend it exists without first acknowledging the wounds and separations that shape us personally, ancestrally, and collectively. You may feel called to explore how you or your lineage have contributed to harm, soften your defenses, see others clearly, and participate in healing rather than repeating old patterns. This isn’t about blame, it’s about unwinding what brought us here so true unity can emerge.

Starseed Soul Inquiry: How are you being invited to drop your defenses and unwind past wrongs?